The Blog Of A Poor Lost Soul

I am a divorced father of 3.   I just heard a good quote on a Reels that totally sums up my ex.   You never know your wife until after she divorces you because, the Angel you married is never the devil you divorce, ever. https://www.facebook.com/share/r/7fcLANjF7oE3eGfg/ I never thought it would turn out like it did.  I never thought that she would turn out the way she did.  But, yeah.  That is the ultimate truth. Just be forewarned brothers.

I am a single dad.  I have been raising my youngest daughter on my own for 6 years.   It's her birthday.  She turns 13 years old.  That means she is now officially a teenager.   😭 Whatever am I going to do?  She's supposed to be my baby forever.   Why?  Why?  Why? I know these teenagers.  Difficult and rebellious they are.  She's my 3rd one.   Bring it on.

I don't have anything to say this morning.   So why am I posting this?  Because sometimes you just have to freewheel it.  I am just typing.  I am just doing what I do.  I write every morning, or at least try.  It keeps my brain focused.  It keeps me sharp.  It is a way to work through my personal bullshit that I have to deal with.  It's a way to solve problems.  It's a way to work out finances so I can keep my head above water.   Writing can be somewhat therapeutic.  I can't get bogged down in my thoughts, so I need a way to work through them.  That's what writing does.  It helps to think things through, to clarify.   I write short little thoughts here, but they usually start out in my Dump Book.  What is a Dump Book?  It's like a journal except after you write in it you tear the page out and put it in the shredder.  Why?  Because nobody ever has to see it. It's a way to help me find my way.

I recently suffered a traumatic event in my life.  I'm not going to get into the details.  It's personal, and ultimately, the best outcome I could have hoped for is what happened.   The problem is that life just hasn't gotten back to normal.  Or rather, I haven't gotten back to normal because I keep reliving it, over and over again.

Yesterday, I had a new stereo installed in my truck.  It has a nice 7-inch screen.  It has Android Auto, which is totally new to me.   It was expensive, but the plan is to keep this truck for a few years so I might as well have what I want from the start, right?   It took them three days shy of a month to get the parts that they needed to get it done.  The hold up was a wiring harness that is specific to my truck and was out of stock at the distributor.  Of course, any other vehicle would use more common parts and it would have been done a lot sooner.  I have to have that one kind of truck that is different from every other truck on the market.   But it's done now.

I am the easiest person in the world to please.   All you have to do is give me everything I want now.